I went to the office today and had a talk with my manager and the job agency aka my official employer. I felt superstressed and nauseaus before going there, really had a knot in my stomach. The talk was okay – there is a plan now, which means I’m going back to work from monday and I start with two hours a day.
I also said that I don’t want my contract to be renewed. I think my manager was a bit surprised. But now everyone knows my contract will end somewhere end of July. So whatever happens, I will not stay in my current job.
So far that, and that was that.
This is the beginning of an end. I don’t know where it will go – it felt difficult, but in my heart I know this is the right decision.
Somehow I came across this sentence. It’s from a song (Shadowman by a band K’s Choice) and though I can not really say that I like the song, I like the sentence.
And I guess it is true. If people ask me how I am, I will say that I’m fine, or something like that. But I guess that is not the truth, and I lie. Even the fact that truth is so important to me, I betray myself, because I lie as well. Yeah. That is what it is. Truth- I lie , as well.