Some time ago, one of my friends recommended this series on Netflix to me – Gomorra: La serie – an Italian crime drama series. Thanks to watching this series, I ‘discovered’ this music by this band Mokadelic. Especially one of their songs is one that kind of resonated with me : Doomed to live.
Doomed to live. That’s exactly how I feel sometimes.
I don’t seem good enough to make a decent life. I’m not bad enough to have a very miserable life. I’m not even good or bad enough to be in between. I’m not good enough to make it in this world and keep things spinning, and not bad enough to be really sick or disfunctioning or whatever you call it.
I’m not even in the middle. Somewhere that falls everywhere in between.
I didn’t choose this. I didn’t choose life. Nor did I choose death.
I am just stuck, and doomed to live. Because I’m here. Because I’m there.
That’s what it is. Doomed to live.