Less than 24 hours, and everything will change. Well, life changes all the times, but sometimes you know a change will come while now nothing seems to be changing: you know it will, but you still feel empty.
Countdowns like these are always weird;you know, but you don’t feel.It’s just going to happen, and you know.
Tomorrow I’ll move. Love will come. Everyone expects me to be superhappy. Yet I can’t.
Yet I am not.
I feel ashamed of myself, that I am not happy, because somehow I seem supposed to be superhappy. But I’m not.
I just am, empty, knowing, but I don’t feel it.
It just is.