Yesterday, just before midnight, my phone rang. I don’t know why, but when I saw that, and the name of the person who called me, I knew something was wrong. Though I didn’t expect the actual message she told me,the first things that crossed my mind were a break in a relationship, healthproblems, or she got stuck with the car or maybe something was wrong with someone who has heart issues.
But non of those things were true. With what she told me, I was shocked. One of our friends died. (well, honestly I’m confused IF I can call her a friend of mine, it’s not that we were superclose (the friend who called me was close) , but we were in touch.)
She died of cerebral hemorrhage. They found her on the couch in her home, she was already cold. And she was just 28.
She leaves a child behind. She didn’t had a great life, it was full of difficulties and just recently she got a house where she felt good, on a place where she felt good. She was a very strong woman, that kept going and smiling, even with all these difficulties.
And now? Now she’s gone. Just like that.
It’s so hard to grasp. I was shaking all over for an hour or 2. I didn’t sleep so well, needless to say. In my head, I imagine how things went, where she is now, if she felt anything. My friend told me she had headaches since a couple of days and took aspirine for that and suddenly this.
Now, I’m sitting here and I don’t know what to do. How do you act when someone dies? What do you do? What do you say?
I don’t know what to think about it or what to do. All I know is that it is so weird, and how life can be suddenly over. Boom. Just like that.